In this blog assignment I will be opening up about a time that happened less than 20 days ago... and still to this day I am very ashamed, embarrassed, and angry. But, before I start what helped me sculpted this blog assignment was from reading two short stories one written by Ernest Hemingway and the other by Maya Angelou. These short stories helped me as a writer use different genres that helps the audience feel what you want them to feel. Therefore, I hope you reading this will help you feel the embarrassment and anger that I felt this day. The day of the Super Bowl I decided to tell my spouse that I no longer want to be together... you see love makes you do stupid things. We got married young, I was 18 he was 20... I decided to put myself first and chose to be a woman with a degree and my dream career before becoming a wife.
Today is a Monday and I have so much errands to do... GEEZ! Its only February and I feel so stressed out already and really unmotivated. January 13th was the day I lost my brand new car that I had taken out the lot 6 months from that day. I was on the highway, there was black-ice and no salt on the bridge. My car slid down the hill and crashed, that was the first L of 2020. My second L was this day.. February 3rd, before I begin I want it to be understood that I already had problems with my spouse the amount of disrespect I kept tolerating and how I realized I was becoming a bum (lazy and very very unmotivated). You know the saying "who you surround yourself with is who you become"... well I became lazy and very very unmotivated. If I gave you a background of who I was in high school and the things I did in college you'll be like "WTF HAPPENED?" "What time do you want to go food shopping?". Fred says. I look up at my phone. '1:57pm'. I scratched my head and sigh. "We can go now, just let me get dressed." ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 33 minutes later.... I look at my phone and read the time '2:30pm'. We just left shop rite and now we're at Walmart. "Alright let's be quick please because I have homework I have to do, meal prep, and im trying to be in bed before 10." I stated to him. "Ard cool," he replies. As we walk into Walmart I noticed he immediately left me by myself, me not caring I go in my own aisle grabbing what I need to meal prep. 20 minutes after grabbing all the items I seen him in the game board aisle, "OUUUUUU lets get a game, have a game night like we use to." I say with some hope in my voice. "Yeah, I'd like that." Fred says "Ard cool, what about this?". I grabbed the 'matched that meme' card game. He smirks and chuckles, "Yeah, that's actually perfect." he says. "Yayyyyy, okay so now lets go its already about to be 3pm" I repsond. "I'm going to go in the sneaker aisle grab some to workout in". he states With a confused and annoyed face I ask "can't get that another time I'm trynna leave neooooow". I state emphasizing the 'neow' part in my Cardi B voice. "Chill out," he says Me catching an attitude in .2 seconds like I usually do, I state "Yo what you mean chill out I got things to do, I'm tired of working on your own time." Damn, this is every time I try to get something done by a schedule and once again he always interferes. Cooking is gonna take me about 2.5 hours and I have to prep another 20 minutes, then I have to wash dishes because he don't help.. another 20 minutes, that'll be around 6-7pm. "Stop b*tching, man". he says walking away.
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This is my second blog! With this blog I would be elaborating what "The writing process" is. This is a method that is used to help establish stronger writer for students, such as myself. Below is a roundtable discussion between me, Don Murray, Mary Karr, and Anne Lamott.
Teach Writing as a Process Not a Product (Don Murray) Against Vanity: In Praise of Revision (Mary Karr) Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life | pp. 28 -34 | Short Assignments & Shitty First Drafts (Anne Lamott) After working a long 12 hour-shift in universtiy city, I go to the nearest Starbucks and grab me the strongest double-shot coffee. After receiving my coffee I go to the nearest table. Being distracted from my phone, I failed to realize there were three people already sitting at the table. I ask if they mind me sitting here, instead of answering they ignored me and continued bickering. I didn't feel like walking anywhere else, so I just sat there. Scrolling through social media I couldn't help put my phone down after I hear someone say "good writing is about telling the truth", that was Anne Lamott. I was not intrigued because I still write in a journal and I am 19 years-old. I immediately budge in and ask them "What are you guys chatting about?". With no remorse they both said "The writing process" in perfect tune. Of course I knew what they were talking about, but I did not know what it was. I'm a college student taking English Comp. stressing about writing an essay about the "writing process" and to my luck. I have found a golden ticket! I respond "Okay, I'm so glad I chose to sit here, someone please explain that. Are you college professors too? I am so overwhelmed with trying to understand this concept, please explain?". Just as Don was going to respond I interrupted him "-- I mean I know there's the prewriting, rewriting, writing, and drafts-- can that be elaborated?" Don Murray says, "Prewriting usually takes about 85 percent of the writer’s time. It includes the awareness of his world from which his subject is born. In prewriting, the writer focuses on that subject, spots an audience, chooses a form which may carry his subject to his audience. Prewriting may include research and daydreaming, note-making and outlining, title-writing and lead-writing" I tell Murray "Yeah I see, I do that a lot actually, now it makes sense. When I have research I just brainstorm and make out-lines to help me organize my work, but I am unexperienced as a writer and have a lot of struggles!" Without a doubt Mary Karr says "For me, the last 20 percent of a book’s improvement takes 95 percent of the effort—all in the editing. I can honestly say not one page I’ve ever published appears anywhere close to how it came out in first draft. A poem might take sixty versions. I am not much of a writer, but I am a stubborn little bulldog of a reviser." "Ugh, that can be so frustrating at times but now that I think about it. Revising has made me become better at getting straight to the point because I remove things that are basically... well--add ons!" I say. "Say to yourself in the kindest possible way, look ,honey, all we’re going to do for now is to write a description of the river at sunrise, or the young child swimming in the pool at the club, or the first time the man sees the woman he will marry. That is all we going to do for now. We are just going to take this bird by bird. But we are going to finish this one short assignment,” says Anne Lamott "Yeah, I am feeling like I can be better at writing given that I am going to write an essay about the writing process and here I am putting the puzzle pieces together!" I say. "We are coaches, encouragers, developers, creators of environments in which our students can experience the writing process for themselves,” says Murray. I nod my head to show that I am not JUST getting an understanding. He continues and says: "The amount of time a writer spends in each stage depends on his personality, his work habits, his maturity as a craftsman, and the challenge of what he is trying to say. It is not a rigid lock-step process, but most writers most of the time pass through these three stages" "That makes perfect sense! Because usually I can write an essay easy. But when it comes to drafts and revising I take more time then I do with prewriting and writing. Also, I really appreciate you guys elaborating this for me, It amazes me how passionate you all are when talking about writing!" I say Mary says "Just picking up a pen makes you part of a tradition of writers that dates thousands of years back and includes Homer and Toni Morrison and cave artists sketching buffalo. It’s a corny attitude to revere writers in this celebrity age, when even academics cry the author is dead. Go to any book award ceremony, and we’re like America’s Homeliest Video. We are the inward-looking goofballs who spill on our blouses and look befuddled in our selfies." "That actually sounds comforting. I struggle most with getting to the point, it's like I have so much to say but I don't know how. Am I the only one who has trouble with writing?" I asked eagerly. Immediately Anne says "There are probably a number of ways to tell your story right, and someone else may be able to tell you whether or not you’ve found one of these ways. The right words and sentences just do not come pouring out like ticker tape most of the time." My phone rings and it's my dad. Shoot! I say. He's already here, conversation is just getting more interesting. "I am so sorry guys I have to go but I truly extremely appreciate all of you explaining this to me! I know I've said it a hundred times, but I will keep saying it because it's true!" In this blog assignment I would be writing a letter to my "author-self" which was inspired by a realigning known as A Fable for the Living (Kevin Brockmeier). Following, this post will be in a motivational form. Help motivate and push myself to the fullest as well as explain how I can achieve my goals in this course.
Dear Bri, You know the saying "when a baby crawls and forces themselves to walk and fall down, they get back up each time with no complaints and don't give up until they can fully walk", please stop acting like you are the only black sheep in life. Get back up with your head in the game and watch how you'll stand out. You have so much potential but literally "sleep" on it. You are wise and smart and very intelligent, use that as your advantage. You know what you have to do to get the job done so do it! No "if", "ands", or "buts", there's other people who don't have what you have and they still were able to achieve the most greatest things in life! Don't let life out run you and remember! Happiness isn't given to you! You have to give it to yourself! So here's how we are going to get you right! Rule 1: Attend every class!
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